The walls we build

I've gone through a lot. I know what I want now and nothing will deter me off that path.
(That is what the strong side of me says. )
Finding yourself again later in life looking back on all your years you could have done better makes you want more!!
You no longer want to sort through the bullshit of life. You just want to keep living each day living happy. Because every time you cried was wasted. What do you have to show for your tears. Fear!! The fear of crying again. That you won't see the pain coming. That this time you might not get back up. When you've lost it all and you climb out of that dark hole you don't ever want to fall back down. So the walls start to build. Brick by brick with determination that they will not crumble.
But what happens when you've built that wall so strong that even when you think you can start to breathe you yourself can't get out. You've created this prison. You lose faith. You lose love. You lose happiness. You lose trust. Because its all there with you behind that big strong not gonna happen again wall.
You gotta set yourself free to move forward. You gotta take the wall down and leave it behind you. Could you get hurt yes, but what won't you see,feel, taste. You can live happy. You are allowed, it is ok !! And because of the strength and determination it took you to get to the here and now your one step ahead of the game because you know its in you.
So go. Make today great and tomorrow even better.