I find myself thinking....
I love more than words could explain. I was so lost and yet my path led me here. There's no one I would rather spend my time with. There's never been anyone I don't want to hide anything from.
Brutal truth was a concept that has become a reality everyday.
The differences between people are sometimes hard to understand but we try.
I came in like a wrecking ball, 4 kids and all to a man who never wanted kids. Found myself completely in love with something so different from my original plan.
You never think you will end up sharing your kids, losing almost everything you worked your life for and then trying to start a new family, a new life with someone who doesn't know your memories or theirs. There's pieces you lose along a path like that. Building them back is harder than you think. But here I am on the brink of a new life, a new me, a new love that's just insanely right and he does love my kids.
But wait...i don't know how to do this life and have my family dreams, love as passionately as i do but be my own person.
I'm still learning who I am. . .
I have to remind myself everyday that its ok to start a new life, its ok that the kids family just got bigger, that it might not be the original plan but its growing into something more than ever dreamed.
So have patience. I will rise from these ashes.
Almost there.
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