Did I make the wrong choice....maybe...I made a lot of wrong choices. I did what I thought was best. I didn't know what would happen, that it would get so bad, that so much shit would be talked about, that as your mother I wouldn't be respected. I was told he had me whatever I needed that I would always be taken care of....i didn't know. I was taught such an old school version of how family should be. I was promised things that fell apart. Never in any of it did I stop loving you. I stayed when I shouldn't have. Tried to keep our family looking like everything was all OK, secretly broken, secretly scared, just wanting a good life for you no matter what it took. You will never know the person I tried to be to make things right. Things I never wish on you ever!! The past is the past the now is the now!! I am trying so hard to be the mom I wanted when I was your age. There are things I won't say cuz I keep my promises. One day when your heart gets broken, god forbid, you will understand. One day when hopefully you have kids of your own you will get it. Its not hate, its what should be. what we, both me and your daddy, believed in. I will keep my promises, I will forever be here when you need me no matter what is said or what has been done. Stepmom....ha...does she want you or just him. Even snakes shed their skin. I will be here for you always!!! If you can remember that we will always be ok. I loved you before I saw you, told daddy to chose you over me when I almost died having you. I'm so proud of who you are, don't let this bullshit affect your choices, make the right ones for you and I will support you always!!!!
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